This site is primarily about outdoor activities, but if you follow me you know that a big part of what I write about is family as well. I believe that the future of wildlife conservation is based on the core values that we instill in our future generations, and I have tried to do that with my children. The only bad thing about children is that they grow up and leave. While I knew the day would come, I was shocked when my youngest son Kyle told me that he wanted to move into an apartment with his friend Nick, a friend and lacrosse teammate since high school.
Kyle and I have always had a very close relationship, and even though I don’t see him much between his work and gym schedule, I still see him every day. Even though I bitch about the messes he leaves around the house, I have always enjoyed having him here. The realization of him not being here anymore was a lot harder to deal with than I thought it would be. Of course I want to be supportive of him getting out on his own, but it’s hard to believe that he is moving out tomorrow.
When you spend twenty years as a father, and most of that as a single father, raising a son is a lot of work, but it was worth every minute of it to see the man that he is today. When I went with him to see his new apartment yesterday to sign the lease, I watched him, and I can see that he is a man now, no longer my little boy. As I helped him pack his things today I can’t help but remember the little boy and all the things that we have done together, but it is time for a new chapter in life for him; and me as well.
After we packed the boxes with his things, we sat in the garage and had a beer together. Kyle told me that he is sad to be moving out, and that he was very thankful for all that I have done for him in his life. He said that he wanted to come over every Sunday to have dinner with me. That meant a lot to me.
I believe that I raised him well, and I know he is a strong young man who has a promising future in life. Letting go is hard, but something that every parent will eventually have to do. I am going to miss having him around.